It's been a while since I've poured my heart onto this canvas known as Datingish, so that means either I've lost all faith in writing or things are actually going well...

In this case it's the latter.  These last few weeks have been quite rewarding, and after a lot of alone time and meditation at the gym, I've really learned a lot about myself and who I am and what I want.  I haven't been writing much because there's nothing much to say.  I've been keeping busy with work, and continue to meet new people.  I've learned to value the good people in my life, and also started to distance myself from people who are "emotionally expensive".  Some people say that it's "THE SECRET", but all in all, it's just positive thinking.

Today something happened that bothered me a lot, which surprised me because outside looking in, it was not a big deal.  I've discovered that I am human.  I took a breather and decided to cross off other things on my list, and get back to it later.  When I ended up getting back to it, I was rejuvenated - things were good, and life itself was back on track.  I've learned that nothing can ever always go according to plan, but when it doesn't we just have to be prepared for it.  Maybe that's where it went wrong.  I've always had the "cross that bridge when I get there" mentality, but planning is a big part of life.  One of my favorite quotes is "most people don't plan to fail, they just fail to plan."  Life is a simply a series of IF/THEN programs put together.

I've also learned it's time to let go of people who don't want you around them.  I've learned the hard truth to the question "can everything be forgiven?"  The answer is NO.  Not everything can be forgiven, and when you do something so terrible that someone doesn't want to be around you anymore, it's time to apologize, and if that doesn't work, it's time to make your peace and move on.  Yes - It's a big pill to swallow, but you have to take responsibilities for your actions, and in the end what matters is if you can look yourself in the mirror and say "I wouldn't have done it any other way".

With that being said - being 30 is not so bad.  I've gone through some changes I would not have at any other point in my life.  30 is definitely the swift kick in the pants to get the ball rolling.  The last few weeks have been nothing short of great, and I can tell this streak will continue for a long time.  I thank all the loving people in my life that believe in me and want to be around me, which without them I would be nothing.

The Beatles were right.  All you need is LOVE...

All the best and lots of love wherever you go and whatever you do...

I have decided that before the year is over I want to be a TRUE member.  I'm currently at 2%.